I am so excited and nervous all at the same time. When I was growing up I had a best friend that was a guy, and we dated from 5th grade until I moved in 10th grade. He was my best friend, but I had puppy love for him too. I spent more time at his house than I did at my own. His mom was like a second mother to me, and her name was Dottie.
When I moved back to NC I lived with her for about a month, then my mom, and then I got my first job here as a live in nanny. I keep in contact with her throughout the years, but never really talked to Derrick except when I lived with her. We lost contact, when she moved from Raleigh, about 6 years ago. I talked to Derrick then, and ran into him at the mall when James and I were dating. The last time I talked to Derrick I told him I was getting married and wanted my best friend to be there. To which he said if I come I will crash it. That didn’t go over to well with James, so I haven’t talked to him since.
My mom passed away a few years ago and I have really been missing her. Not only have I been missing mom I missed talking to Dottie, and my best Friend Derrick. I always wonder what are they up to, and what have they been doing. I have talked to James about getting in contact with them, and he is such a wonderful husband, he always tells me that it is ok. For some reason though I just have felt like it would be wrong, especially after the whole issue with Derrick. James is my best friend, he is my whole world, and I love him to death. We will be married forever, and have been through some rough patches but we have made it through, and that is because it is true love that is meant to be. I love you baby!
Now back to my point, I feel like a part of me is missing. Derrick and I never worked out, and that is because he is more like a brother to me than anything. We are meant to be friends and nothing more. However I would love to talk to his mom again and see what her, him, and his brothers have been up to. I think once I talk to her I will feel complete again. She was one when mom and I were having problems I could always go to her house to escape, and when I couldn’t live with mom, she opened her doors and let me right in. There is a long history there, and I would love to hear from her again, in fact I just need to. I need to catch her up on what is going on in my life, tell her about James, and my mom passing. I also have a need to find out where she is, what she has been up to, and to see if I could come visit her, or meet her for lunch. Boy would we have a lot to talk about. Six years have gone by, I would love to show her wedding photos, pictures of our first house, and our 2 dogs.
So today on August 28th, I got up the courage to put my mind at ease and send her a letter. I got online and found her address, but there was no number listed. So I thought I would send a note, you know the old fashioned way before phones or email. In the letter I told her that I had been trying to contact her for years with no luck, what I have been up to, told her I would love her to call, and I left all my contact information.
If it is meant to be, then God will make sure that she gets the letter and she contacts me, if not I have done all I can. I pray that she gets the letter and makes contact. I would love to thank her for being there for me always, and for giving me someone where to stay. So hopefully I will have an update for you soon, she lives in the same state as me, so she should get the letter by Friday. I just hope it doesn’t get returned to sender and that it is a current address for her.
Fingers crossed and lots of prayers.
A quick shout out to my hubby for being ok with me doing this, even if it means she may forward my information to Derrick. James has been by my side through everything, and I am very open with him, I don’t keep secrets from him. I also will not lie to him, relationships are built on trust. I love you baby, and even though I may not tell you it often enough, thanks for always being there for me and for always being by my side.